. I couldn't try it day after day because i knew i would have to be at 100% or i could possibly fall off the top. One day while working it I ended up sticking the crux move and did the next move to the Jug. as soon as I hit the jug I realized that I was too pumped to do the top. I shook out for a few seconds on the jug and made two more moves to the lip and then I backed off I knew that if I would have tried the mantle I would have taken the worst possible fall and probably would have been really hurt. I had mixed feeling about that moment. I was happy because I knew that I could do it but I realized that it would take confidence to top this thing out. I knew that this boulder was very close to the limit of what I was capable physically but mentally I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to pull it off. I was scared to fall off the top. with no Health insurance I couldn't really afford a serious injury. I went back by myself and worked the top out into submission doing it over and over until I felt that there was no doubt in my sequence. I went back a few times after that and couldn't stick the crux again. I started to think that the time I bailed was my time and I let it slip away. It started to mess with my head. I wanted to climb this boulder so bad. I took about a month off from trying it i worked on my core my power and my endurance. I wanted to be in the best shape of my life for my next attempts . I was ready, i remember telling Michelle that morning that today is the day. i felt light confident and I wasn't putting any pressure on my self to send i was just going to go for it. i was either going to send or die. Click on the Link to My vimeo page to see the raw footage.https://vimeo.com/69916032
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